TH LADY-
im SEESIAA,
Gets 1 year older on 19sep, im single mingle but unavailable ( :
gets aroung with th flow of the EARTH !
to contact me or wan know abt me
add me * shes_seesiaa@live.com ( :
somehow i felt that long time i nvr post this blog alrdys ..sorry readers , i'm kind of busy thats why hehes ..hmms , does love really exist ?recently it seems to work , i'm quite happy . i dont dare to be too happy because i still have no confident . its been 5 month plus that i kept holding on to him .. am i stupid ? arghs , so be it bahs ..i love him i fight for him , when i dont have him i am afraid of losing him , when i've had him , im afraid that he left me.. hahas, i really nvr thought of thats i love him so so much ..baby why aint you seeing all this ? Guys don't like sweet talking ..Girls love sweet talking , but not guys ..haish , guys don't feel by words .for guys , they love actions ..baby i tried all th ways to win you back , we're just like tgt now , but why aint we back ?i love you so so much , but i am scared ..baby i feel so suffocATING at times ,i swear you're th first and th last guy in this world that i'll loved ..i mean it , i rejected so many guys ..baby , you always say you're not perfect ... baby listen up :' i love th way you're , and what you're when i'm with you , i accept who you 're .i came to love not by loving a perfect person , but came to love an imperfect person perfectly 'you're just yourself , i just loved you being this way ..i realised my past misakes , i had mistakes because i'm afraid .. compared to other , i even more afraid ..you mean th entire world of me ! (:i love you bebes <3 ♥ sorry i can't denied
Sunday, October 31, 2010, 2:44 AM
brother = baby
bb, i' sorry that i appear , mayb i giving you all alot of problems . but i tried to minimized it , mayb i really not that lucky , but still i gonna say : "jyeahs i do love you but sorry if i sound like i don't because i want you to be happy , mayb i sacrifices will let you happy then everything will be worth , but if it doesn't , i want you back , because when i with you , you let me know what's love , everything mayb seems to be a past story , but we could still make back if we want . jyeahs its true to be painful )': "
BABY JYEAHS I LOVE YOU !! nothing will change this facts , i wait ! ( : Elle-Ohh-Vee Eeeee♥ tell me
Friday, September 24, 2010, 10:45 PM
i sadih larhs, wht do you feel when th boy you loved always 'lol' in msg ? i fell fcuking sad siax. i'm leaving for camp but he doesnt have any feelings like tht . sometimes i feel does he even miss me ?
* BABY sometimes i just feel this, its ohkayes if you tell me now thts you loved another girl. i don't mind you loved another girl . but as longg as you happy with her . i surrender to th fate , you happy dgn her , i pun happy, but deeply in my heart . i felt sad, i hide my tears, i don't mind being sad alone . i just don't want to see you sad. i loved you ) : finallys i realised i loved you alots , & my love for you is so deep thts i didnt even realised. all i know is i love you , i want to be with you. what others have , i couldnt have it . aku sadih , awak faham ? i want to be like we used to , but im so afraid everythinggs is just a shortwhiles. i dare not to be happy , because im afraid you understand ? i afraid you'll change your mind. thts time i ask you, why among all girls im th only girl who cant contact you ? why ? you reply me saying : ' because i chose this way ) : ' aft this alots question popped out from my minds : - then one day will you chose to let go everything ? - then will you one day chose to forget abt me ? - then one day you'll just treat me as strangers ? - then one day you'll break your promised ?
you gave me a very unsure promised . its not i trust you its i've my reasons ) :
** th more i trust you , th more im ven afraid . th more i miss you, th more you wont be there . th more i hope , th more it breaks ) :
i loved you babay , i ant let go because i still love you. when i say i loved you , it means i loved you more than ever. i reallys so jealous to know thts wht other girls around you could have but not me ) : i don't want any girls around you to scared of me . but i want you back tht simple. you told me soon we'll be back . i believe and i wait . but don't lie to me again ) : cause i say i trust you , i put everything of mine entirely on you ♥ chan ruk khun .
Tuesday, September 21, 2010, 1:31 AM
BABY , may it be whether you'll read anot. but i just want to say i really loved you. i definetly not like other girls, i say i loved you, i mean it. i don't mind having nothings as longg as i loved you. i've been pretending strongg since tht day. i'm tired of pretending . baby, i want to show. you ever told me once thts as longg as i show you my love, you'll be back. i don't know whether it works but i'll still give a try . boy, i dont want anythingg. all i want is YOU , can i be th only one of yours ? you're always th first thing i thought of ) : ♥ bolehs farham saya ) :
, 1:18 AM
can anybody come to me , telling me thts they really understand me ? i really wished he understands how i feel ) : i never been so lost before, i know wht i want. finallys , i know there's somethinggs much more precious than anythingg else. its HIM ( th boy i loved do much) everybody left me , i feel so upset. i hate living, i hate it alots because i lost everythinggs ) : does anybody know why am i like thts ?
* love are like roses, beautiful and calm , it willing to draw blood in defense .
* love are like roses, it brings thorns alongs, but why can't we just like before ?
* do you know i loved you so much , plus up all th memories , its not simple from th starting, even till now im still dropping tears for you because i loved you alots. But you don't believe ) : im not like other girls , its okayes i dont get you now, but i'll wait. i loved you so much , can you feel it ? ♥ want to numb myself
Monday, September 13, 2010, 12:12 AM
how i wish i've freedom like anyone does, how i wished there's no law. If there isn't any law for marriage i would want to get married with th boy i loved so much , i don't want shared him with others. yeahs, i been controlling myself not to be jealous anymore, but does anybody including him know thts i loved him ? yeahs , other girl mayb loving him too but i did so much to it . Its so great till i don't know how to describe, so jealous knowing he's happy hanging around with all th females friends. how i wished i was asked to join them, how i wished i was able to join them, how i wish i can have anythingg i want to . i jealous because i do loved you , & its even more than ever. tired of being alone , tired of knowing so many girls loved you, before being with you , i know all this things will gonna happen, when i started being with you , i alreadys knew thts you gonna attract alots of girls, you belong to me . i reallys so tired of hiding my feelings, i been very strong, you know wht is th most painful cuts ? its th part tht you break our promises & chose to left me. everybody have second chance but i don't . i don't blame you, i blame myself for allowing you to escape from my hands. It hurts alots, i don't want any better guys, i told you before , you're th only boy i loved. i very afraid everythings was a lie.
* im so sick todays, my brain cells are almost burned off. having high fever, arghhs baby i need your concern ) : ♥ photos seems so memorables
Saturday, January 15, 2011, 1:01 AM
